Today was rough. My butt is so sore from the progesterone shots and my stomach was all crampy. The nurse said the cramps should feel more like pulling from the ligaments stretching, but I can’t tell the difference. It worries me. The only way it feels good is if I’m laying down. It’s a lot of pressure being the one person who is responsible for keeping your baby safe. And when I feel cramping I feel like I’m not doing my job. I don’t want the baby to go away. I want to keep it safe and healthy. All of this combined make me want to cry. I didn’t actually cry but I wanted to. Once I hear the heartbeat I will feel so much better. The risk of miscarriage is much lower after you hear the heart. Luckily, I lasted the whole day and now I get to relax in front of the TV. On Demand is a wonderful thing.
For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well. Psalm 139:13-14
2 comments:
hope you feel better today and i will think of a great desert for tonight!
Gretchen just know you are doing a wonderful job and this isnt just in your hands. Everything will be just fine. PS if you want to cry then cry you have that right.
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